Reality

"I want to make something very clear in my understanding of love. Not even in my understanding, in the reality that is love. I want it to be known that if you stay with somebody because you are afraid to hurt that person, you are lying to that person & you staying with them is even worse than you leaving them.

Because you are trying to shield them from reality. You are lying to them.

If you break up with somebody & she goes on her knees & she's crying & she's begging you & she tells you that you are her life? & you are so affected by her one statement that you run & you tell niggas "No one's ever said that to me before, this must be really serious" & you're looking in my face & telling me that that emotional hysteria, that dysfunction, that psychological DISEASE is love.

It doesn't worry you?

That this girl, how ever old she is, how ever young she is, looks to another human being & amounts that human being to her entire existence? When in reality, she doesn't even know this human being, this human being has an entire different side to him that he is hiding, & he is shielding from her. Trying to protect her, all in the name of what he says is love.

I don't ever want to be in that position.
I don't ever want to be in that girl's position.
Ever, in any of my lifetimes.

Cause when I think about it, I remember I once loved a boy like that. He broke up with me & I was crying my eyes out, I was calling, I was begging, I completely made a fool out of myself & here today I still stand, alive & well & strong & BETTER FOR IT.

Because he gave me reality.
He did not want to lie to me, no matter how painful it might've been for me at the time. He LET me learn & heal, he could not, would not & did not shield me from this world. He did not shelter me, he did not appease me, he did not compromise.

& if you do not do the same? You damage her. More than you can ever say you love her. Her telling you that you are her life? Is dangerous, especially when you do not feel the same way. Loving her suddenly becomes a chore, what disrespect!

Why not let this girl go & perhaps find somebody that can love her as deeply as she claims to love whatever you she thinks she knows?

Why do you hold them back in the name of keeping them safe? When it is not your place to?

You don't put on no fucking armor when they ain't no mother fucking beasts to slay!

You're shielding her from reality, from truth! & so what if that shit makes her cry? She will continue on! She will grow better & she will learn to love this world even deeper & even more, because she will learn to love HERSELF.

How can you say your boyfriend is your life?

No nigga should be your life, nobody else but your Self & your God should equate to such.

That shit is dangerous & it disturbs me & it's painful for me to think that this poor girl is sitting there thinking something completely different from the reality that IS. All in your name of protecting her.

What disgust, this produces in me.

I don't ever want to be that position. I fucking pity that girl. Because you are shielding her from reality. You're lying to her. In the name of love.

These niggas, when they're telling me a dysfunctional ass babe is going all crazy over 'em & they're telling me that "Nah, I can't leave her, I can't leave her, I don't wanna hurt her, I don't wanna hurt her" All that nonsense? "It's so hard for me to let go"?

Really, IT AIN'T ABOUT THE GIRL.

It's about you & your mother fucking ego.

You love that she's so fucking hysteric about you, you love it! The attention! The power! It makes you feel so strong, so capable & so you keep it up, saying you're protecting her.

Saying that you can tell that the tears really affected her, that she was weak after two days? YEAH NIGGA WE ALL WERE.

EVERYBODY.

Every single strong ass Queen braved this fire of delusion, when they are crying their eyes out for a FOOL.

Cause that's what you being right now.

A fool.

You thinking that you can dole out the lessons God might have in store for these people? You thinking that you wasting her TIME is SAVING her? Cause what happens now? You don't want to settle, you don't want to compromise, you don't want to be with this girl, you keep on lying & lying, loving her suddenly equates to a sacrifice! A burden! You keep drawing it out, this time that she could be using to heal, to better understand herself, you keep on shielding her from & one day when that truth finally rips it way out of your mouth it will be done violently! It will be so much more painful & this girl might not survive it & it will all be because of your own,

SELFISHNESS.

Compromise? Is Cowardice.

You do what you do for your own happiness. Reality is the only thing that can provide that. & God will sort everybody else the fuck out. Don't worry about these girls. We're strong, we will overcome, we were built to.

Reality is what we need.

& reality is what you need to feed them.

If you cannot give them reality? My nigga, don't come round my way. Do not speak to me about these girls. Do not talk to me, do not complain to me, do not tell me a damn thing. Because every time you tell "My girlfriend this, my girlfriend that" my heart cries out in PAIN for my fellow sister.

You have shackled her in a cage of delusion & you proudly wear the key around your neck.

& you call it love.

That ain't real nigga.

This is emotional dysfunction supporting emotional dysfunction.

That's all the fuck there is to that.

& if you don't have the balls to face the true reality of it? Well my nigga, MAN THE FUCK UP.

Fuck you got a dick for?

Nonsense. "

Lady Gaga.

Tell me I'm lying.