This is not poetry. I am simply emptying out my head.

Her fingers grasped the door handle. She didn't know what to say.

Or think.

Or even feel.

He stood behind her. She could feel his eyes boring into her back. She knew what would be appropriate. The problem was, she didn't feel what society told her to feel. He had "cheated". They had been a lie.

It should hurt right?

It should sting.

She should cry.

She should scream.

But all she could do was sigh. A small tinge of a smile touched her face. She quickly batted it away. The refreshing cold sensation of freedom assaulted her. She felt liberated from his hot doldrums. From his long boiling dehydrating days, and freezing antarctic nights.

She felt like she could fly.

But this wasn't what was in the script. She kept her back turned. A train wreck of emotional dissent railed into her. She felt crocodile tears welling up inside her eyes. Her fingers touched them and she stared at her wet finger tips in awe.

Feeling nothing.

She turned around immediately, causing more tears to spill. "I don't care." she said. He was startled and took a step towards her. She kept her hand on the door handle and turned it as his foot landed closer to her.

"I really don't. I don't think I ever really cared"

He opened his mouth, and she was sure words had come out, but she hadn't heard.

Planet Earth was on mute.

All she could hear was her deliverance.

"It doesn't matter, all those words you've planned on saying, none of them matter, because I don't care" she continued. His lips moved faster. She wasn't a very good lip reader. She opened the door behind her and took a step backwards. Crossing over the threshold.

Leaving him behind.

Leaving them behind.

She finally allowed herself to smile as the space between them grew. He had stopped talking. She nodded as her smiled widened.

A breathtakingly beautiful smile.

A smile that the sun was created for.

So it could shine on it forever.

"I don't care. Because as much as I loved you. I love myself more."

Another step back. The door shuts in her face. The silent darkness of the hallway engulfs her.

But her smile shines.

And lights up the world.

BLING BLING BITCH.