Greener Pastures

You know? The world is a funny place. I'm learning to just sit back & enjoy, learning to always present myself with the reality of my very NON reality. I read an interesting article last week, my interesting means it spoke to my soul, it stated that everything about me, the words I use to define my very existence does not exist.

Everything I know was given to me. Words were taught to me, a name was given, there is no such thing as a natural state within me, I am all imagination.

& so is everyone else.

When I think about the world like that, the mundane suddenly becomes brilliant, the ugly beautiful & the boring deathly entertaining. But growth is a process, discoveries are instant but behavior modification is not. So in light of all these lessons I still find myself frustrated over someone of the opposite sex not picking up a call.

I'm a girl at heart. A proud & demanding one at that. But I know I can help it, I know I can overcome all of those things. It'll just take time. Speaking of which, I think I have to take more for myself, force solitude on myself , I might've rushed into the social world a bit too quickly & I'm currently feeling pretty burnt out.

I'm giving out more than I'm getting. I need more time to give to myself. I can't even remember the last time I just spent the day dancing naked, this isn't healthy for me at all.

I've been thinking too much of other people, all these specimens garnering for my attention, fuck all of you, this is my movie!

I'm glad I got that out. It's still early. I still could dance.

I should go out on a date tomorrow.

Nah.

Fuck that shit.

Solo dolo W&W it is.