Over.

I can feel myself changing.

Or perhaps the familiar situation I am in at the present moment is understood differently with this new & higher level of clarity. It is admitted they could be one in the same thing.

This weekend was quite defining for me. I mean to say, that it could be the catalyst for the final & determined layer of cement I am required to build my Zion upon. Silence is so much more welcoming & in the silence you become more aware of both yourself & of those around you. you begin to discern aura's, without even having to actively perceive the person. Silence enables you to be, without being present.

The absence of sound empowers me.

People fall easily for silence, this once again leads to blasted Descartes & his confounded "I think, therefore I am". Like Freud with single parenting, Descartes failed to account for a defining factor that very well undermines his overly simplistic view of existence. He ignored the existence of the subconscious, that is to say the "unthinkable" within, primal instinct we cannot presently fathom or make sense of. I mean, does he allude to the idea that I am "not" when I am asleep? Which is of course, fucking ridiculous.

Thinking does not always constitute doing, nor does doing, thinking.

But I digress.

Under the affect of Descartes' bloated assertion of the human mental condition & existence, general population works under the assumption that silent is weak. Now in this visually stimulated culture especially one is always looking for entertainment. Now as I am without such base urges I always find myself in the position to provide what others so desperately seek. Which inadvertently throws me in a distinct position of power.

I am depended on.

While I depend on no one.

The puppets then hand me their strings.

But of course when "seeking" to ensnare & trap a conditioned mind one must always make an allowance for the fact that they are still human, like you, & that light within to match your own makes them uncontrollable. You can only suggest a road, it is still within their right to deny your control. Which leaves a margin for error you must always account for. I have found humility to be the best safeguard against such errors. It enables me to adapt & change my strategy at a moments notice. I am never deterred. When my solar plexus lights up?

I have found my answer.

An entire existence emotionally alone has enabled my gifts in this respect. But of course natural talent is prone to err & err I did, as much as my youth & vitality would allow. But I am a fast learner. I cannot drown myself for long.

Allah taught me how to swim.

I do feel some sense of finality after the events of this weekend though. A deep & irreversible change in my perception. Looking back on my journey to this great summit I realize that all mistakes behind me, all the lessons learned were merely stepping stones, but were of the the utmost necessity. I could not skip any of them. I had to involve them all to reach this wonderful plateau. The deep valley of His grace & certainty. I am completely devoted.

Not even a man has been able to distract.

But I do not parrot my self assertions, I consume all around me & now with greater volumes of calculated silence. I give myself the freedom & power to grow.

Unhindered.

To abandon these lies that throw me in such despair. This wretched planet that WE have made so barren, have raped & plundered. Any joy once found is being destroyed by man's own inability to see past the nature of his immediate gratification.

I look for a new species of consciousness in Zion.