Today has been an emotional roller coaster. There are a lot of decisions I have to make about my life, decisions with consequences I don't generally support but it must be done. I love Ghana you know? Because it's home. And after being raised all over the planet, the idea of home is extremely valuable to you.
I never really had a definite "home" so if I can sit down and say, this is my heart, this is my home. I'm happy. But to achieve the things I want to, I might need to leave. Ultimatums are being brought forward and I'm resentful, cause in honesty, I want to have my cake and eat it too.
I'll bounce back though, the light will illuminate the path before me. I'm just at crossroads, I have so many options, I just don't know what to do.
I really do hate America, living in America, being alone in America. But I now have the resources to go back and forth whenever I please, and a psychology degree from an American accredited institution would be a lot more lucrative you know?
I think my decision is already made, but I hate it.
But at the end of the day, it's for the better. You gotta live today for tomorrow. You gotta be smart with the big responsibility that is your life, cause if I fuck up now, if I slip up now, I'm the only one that'll suffer, I'll be the only to blame.
I can't risk my future.
When she presented the idea to me, I was upset, I was terrified, I basically cried at the idea of moving again, but hey, I'm young, this is the only time I'll ever get to do it. And she's right. Admitting that is the hardest thing I've done all day.
But I feel better. The idea sucks, but I feel better.
All zenned out and shit.
Peace and blessings.
Don't be afraid of discomfort, especially if it turns out be lucrative. You have to have a balance you know? Nothing worthwhile comes without work, nothing real, nothing lasting comes without difficulties.
Do what you have to for your future and your legacy.
I'll cop that degree and have you hoes calling me Dr. Franklyn Acolatse.
Amen, thank you Jesus.
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