What I would call Passion.

Whenever I hit stateside I am brought face to face with my robotic motions when it comes to male sex, in Ghana my strange behavior is easy to ignore, there are so little men to choose from, and the one's that are there are all cheating bastards, not to mention vapid, and mentally inconsequential, and if they're not? They're married, so you kinda lose interest in the idea completely.

But whenever I come to America, I find myself yearning for an interest, a friend, something in my mind switches, all of a sudden there are just so many boys around and my optimism starts to perk up and play with the idea that at least one of these trillions of niggas could tickle my fancy for a little while. I get bored here very easily, and as tedious as men are, they do entertain, I enjoy being entertained. I mean, isn't that the point of entertainment?

What's so funny about it with me, is the fact that it has little to no sap factors in it at all, I just want to find someone as romantically sick as I am, who will give me freedom without them, and fiery security with them, mental food you know? I want to be understood as an entity all on my own, I'm not a girlfriend. I will never be a girlfriend.

I'm a lover.

I'm a soulmate.

And when you play in the tendrils of those two arena's, societies laws and expectations about "relationships" are destroyed entirely, there are no rules, only raw emotions, raw energy transferred between two human beings, it is undefinable in it's power. You can't box it in with "I love you" with "That's my wifey" with "That's my boyfriend". What the fuck is a boyfriend?

I'm going to be single until the minute that priest says "You may kiss the bride" and if that never happens, I'm going to have a long string of lovers, all artistic, all insane. Just like me. I'm too fundamentally strange to not have an explosive love life. I thrive on poetic justice, my life is a script, written by my creator to entertain my ancestors.

Everything about a new day, is new. There will never be another tomorrow, there will never be another yesterday, today is the only today you will ever experience. Today is the only day that matters.

So today, I want to be intrigued, I want to be amazed, I want to share some energy. Let's spread our power all over the room, explode into a thousand ethereal bits, we'll come up for air tomorrow.

Nothing else exists.