I feel like I'm losing a friend. There, I said it, it's out in the open, what's been bothering me this entire while. I know how easy I am to adjust, so the idea that if said friend does suddenly find himself no longer in the friend zone with me not very eager to bring him back in the safe zone worries me because I know how possible it is.
Every time I'm around this person I feel like there's an elephant in the room & I just can't handle it, seeing it now on paper like this the solution is making itself awfully clear but in an effort to change I'm resisting it. Perhaps I need to learn that resisting what is natural to me will only make me uncomfortable & I will only suffer in the end.
& I have been pretty uncomfortable lately, extremely so. I'm fighting my nature for someone else's definition of friendship.
Just be yourself, don't be afraid to listen to yourself, no matter what anyone else tells you, no matter the rules on how you're supposed to act. How do they know how YOU are supposed to act?
Who knows you better than you?
Lesson learned.
Leave it be.
Thankful for another day.
Blessed to see another week.
Ready for whatever my Creator has in store for me.
Walking with my ancestors.
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