Open your eyes & find the diamonds.

Life. Looking out the window.

I'm attempting to find my natural high outside of THC for the next few weeks. I have a feeling that the THC is an introduction to my mysticism but also a depressant of it. It allows me to see the material world naturally, see the false as false & the true as true, so much so that learning to discern the true from the false has become a part of my nature. As the Dhammapada says is required on the path to enlightenment

My spiritual need for marijuana is become marginally smaller as my soul expands, adapts & learns.

I want to instil in it a purpose once more. So for the next couple of steps up the ladder I will ride it completely sober. In my dependance on the drug I forgot about the gift of communication I enjoyed freely when high I could also enjoy when blandly sober.

My sober?

Should not be bland.

So now I work to bring life back into my normalcy. I've always been this way, before I smoked I was a smoker. It's less about the action itself & more about the state of mind the continued action requires.

Everything is in your intentions.

In intentions you can learn to point out the Lion from the Lamb.

I play both easily.

I want a power that is natural to me, a power I can call at will without the aid of any hallucinogenic drug. I'm hungry for it. You might have another name for this power I so covet.

The subconscious.

I know once I've unlocked that I will understand everything I need to & understand why I don't need to understand the things I have no use for.

Untold bouts of wisdom in that vat of memories of all three realms of our world; the past, present & future.

I have the Philosopher's Stone nestled deeply somewhere in my cranium & heart.

& I am determined to free it.

& in turn myself.

Sometimes I feel sorry for those around me, for having to deal with such eccentricities as mine. But think of this, my crazy only seems crazy because you're boring. Because you have not found the way.

Because you are still in the dark.

You spend your days with a frown on your face with disdain for the ways of others, completely focused on the material, crying about the boy who has yet to text you back.

When you could be finding the reason why none of that shit matters.

I've always been aware, that none of that shit matter.

Praise be to Allah.

The journey ahead of me excites.

Because in ridding my need of all possessions, the Source builds me an empire.

But no matter how much the diamonds underneath my feet sparkle.

I will always look to the sky & in it I hope to always see my heart.

“Air is our Guru, water our father
& the great Earth, our mother.
Day & night are the female & male nurses
In whose laps the whole universe plays.
Good & bad deeds are all disclosed.
In the presence of Righteousness.
Our actions take us near or far.
Those who remember the Name earn true success.
Nanak says their faces shine,
& they take many with them to liberation.”

As small as a giant.

"And I've been given the tools to turn it [Earth] into my eternity, to turn it into my heaven. All the spiritual and the natural can come together in the unity of this earth and of my intentions. .... I'll understand that sentence one day, but right now I'm barely grasping at the seams. But my gift will be realized, my dreams will be achieved. " - Frankey Acolaste, 16th August 2009

Insha'Allah.